As I said in an earlier post, last summer, I spent a lot of time with the Lord in devotional time and prayer. But I forgot to say something in that post. I forgot to say that I lost that habit. Somewhere in the midst of my “busy” life, that precious one-on-one time with my King got cut.
Well, I wanted it back. But it occurred to me that it was no longer requisite of my day. Working with a ministry, you do those things as part of the programming with the students. Plus, we staff, as a team of spiritual guides, know that if we aren’t rooted in the Truth, then we will not bear fruit. So you see, it was a must then. But now, apart from the structure of that summer, it is a choice — a daily, hourly, moment-by-moment choice.
Knowing how much I appreciated that structure and that start of my day, it’s surprising to me that I could let such a habit slide. Well, when I got to thinking about it, I realized it’s easy to let important things slide. Because habits, especially, take a continual commitment. Not a one-time commitment, but continual.
And lately I’ve been catching myself saying things like, “I’m sorry I can’t do that important thing you asked me to do; I have x, y, and z to do.” Or just: “Sorry. Can’t help. Too busy!” What that means is: My stuff is more important to me than your stuff. Ouch. I don’t really want to be that way, you know?
So I asked myself: How do I want to be? Well, I want to serve others and exercise selflessness. I want to be the friend I wish to have. I want to prioritize my time with God. And above all, I want to stop being “too busy” for the things that matter most to me.
Eventually, about a month or so ago, I returned to my morning devo (I very much recommend complimenting scripture with Oswald Chambers’ classic, My Utmost for His Highest). What started as a chore (waking up early) and a discipline (prioritizing this time and not jumping right into work mode) has become the delight of my day. Seriously, I love it. But I have to remember that, because spending quality time with my Father is about the most important thing in life, and if I start saying I’m “too busy” for it, well then, I’m the only one to blame.